Monday, June 14, 2010
Thank You. Seriously, THANK YOU!
Since it's officially the last week of school we have no more homework! How great is that? It's such a relief to not have a ton of homework from French, English, Health, Geometry, and most of all.. BIOLOGY. But what to do now? What to do in those 6 hours.. The computer eventually hurts my eyes after 3 hours and then starts to decrease in entertainment. So...what to do? I know! Haaha, make tons and tons of "Thank You" cards! I'm trying out this new thing where I compliment people on a daily basis and start to just be a nicer person overall. Other than that, I have another goal as well. A very important goal. To me that is.. It's to get over Angel. Like seriously.. I honestly have no chance with him, and if I did, he's leaving for college. The relationship just wouldn't work out, no matter how hard we tried. The only way it could, was if he really loved me and I really loved him, but like that just doesn't work. I'm still going to love him until the last day of school. This Friday, it will be the beginning of the end of my heart racing with thoughts of him. I'm proud of myself. But at the same feel disappointed and defeated. I have a sense of frustration about the whole situation. What if I never saw him in the cafeteria 7 months ago? Would this obsession have ever been created? Would the symptoms of true love ever hit me this year? Who knows. Who the fuck knows what everything could've been like. I just have to live with it. What I do know is that, this was a once in a lifetime experience. All the stalkings and sitting outside of the classroom where he eats during lunch with my best friend, were wasted but brought so much joy to my life. I really did think that I wasn't going to develop any feelings for any human being for the next 3 years. And that is probably true. We just have SO much in common, it's as if it was FATE. I guess life just throws shit in your face, and it's your decision whether to chase it like a dumb person or think and compare if it's worth it. He's probably going to find someone he loves in college and of course.. lose his virginity. And she's going to be the luckiest girl in the world. As a matter of fact, it's been proven that most marriages are formed by relationships in college.. But then again, MORE than HALF of marriages end in divorces. I just wish him happiness, because he does deserve it. He deserves the best and nothing but the best. Oh, and those are exactly 13 "Thank You" cards made in 4 hours. ANDDD AND AND also, I realized that I have a very unique face. Like.. I've never met anyone with a face similar to mine. So yeah. Just wanted to point that out to any over-analyzers that read this, I'm aware I have a unique face!
Posted by Larissa Blintz at 8:34 PM